Chen Yi and Lin Qingrou have been inseparable since childhood, neighbors, classmates, and best friends growing up together through every phase of school life. As they enter high school, the lines between friendship and romance blur, and Chen Yi realizes his feelings for the girl who’s always been by his side a girl he thought he knew better than anyone.
Lin Qingrou seems to embody every trait of the perfect schoolgirl: beautiful, intelligent, diligent, and modest—the archetypal campus goddess whom every boy admires from afar. Chen Yi, an average student with a penchant for games and little ambition, is shocked to realize the stirrings of young love for someone so close, and, with the encouragement of their friends, he finally confesses. To his amazement and joy, Lin Qingrou accepts, seemingly bringing his romantic dreams to life.
But Chen Yi’s happiness is built on an illusion: Lin Qingrou, beneath her innocent, gentle exterior, harbors dark secrets and dangerous habits born of trauma and self-loathing. Pressured by an incident in her past a rape at a party that left her body changed and her self-perception shattered she falls into a spiral of sexual addiction and exploitation at the hands of men who see her as nothing more than a plaything. She presents the world with a flawless mask, but in reality, Lin Qingrou is trapped in cycles of shame, longing, and bodily betrayal, using sex as both punishment and escape.
As Chen Yi experiences the innocence and sweetness of first love the excitement of holding hands, shared laughter, and exploring gentle fetishes he remains blissfully ignorant of Lin Qingrou’s double life. For her, each moment with Chen Yi is colored by guilt and confusion; she desperately wants to protect him from the truth of her depravity, even as she continues to be used and humiliated by others.
The novel is a dark juxtaposition between youthful, wholesome romance and the ugly realities of trauma, addiction, and self-destruction. Alternating between sweet scenes of puppy love and explicit, shocking encounters, My Childhood Sweetheart Can't Possibly Be This Lewd explores the dichotomy of appearance versus reality, and the devastating lengths to which people go to conceal pain and find acceptance.
As their relationship deepens, Lin Qingrou is torn between her growing affection for Chen Yi and her inability to break free from the chains of her own self-hatred. Can love heal a shattered heart, or will Lin Qingrou’s secrets destroy her final chance at happiness?
NTR, Netorare, Adultery, Group Sex, BDSM, Humiliation, Sex Slave, Sex Toys, Incest, MTR, Married, Cheating Mother, Seduction, Objectification, Infidelity, Domination, Sexual corruption
